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I feel like I mention that I am Gen X a lot, the same way some people talk about being vegan. I say it not as any kind of moral statement, but as an indicator that I belong to the group born between the Baby Boomers and the Millennials that have shared certain experiences in common which unite us.
I feel like we had potential which went unrealized for many of us, because we went through one major financial upheaval after another during the 00s, right as we were coming of age. But even back before the dotcom bust, Boomers were criticizing us for being cynical and apparently aimless, just like they're constantly accusing Millenials of being coddled and self-absorbed now.
But for a lot of us, I feel like this is a result of us sensing early on that our collective ship was never going to come in the way it had for the Boomers, but we were still all kind of trying to occupy time until whatever eventually ended up happening for us would happen for us.
This song has been running through my head the past few days. I feel like it exemplifies this perfectly.
I woke up from a nap today to a text that I received, informing me that an old friend of mine had passed away. On LJ she was tenar10r, and I am not sure she ever made the jump to DW. She was getting over a bad divorce, and it seemed like she was starting to bounce back. I still don't know the details. Her funeral is next week.
So many of us didn't make it out of the 90s, thanks to depression, heroin, and sundry other reasons. Those of us who did make it are now getting to that age where we're starting to shuffle off, while it feels like the Boomers spin ever on and on, aged but ageless.
Those of us who are immunocompromized, those of us predisposed to diabetes or heart disease or cancer, those of us with depression who choose to find their own way out, are leaving already; our lights are starting to go out, one by one. So many of us have never had the resources to lift us back out, to get us over.
I can feel mortality creeping up, just as I feel like I am finally starting to figure things out and get my shit together, and it terrifies me.
That said...if you ever need to, please, please reach out to someone, for any reason or no reason at all.
I feel like we had potential which went unrealized for many of us, because we went through one major financial upheaval after another during the 00s, right as we were coming of age. But even back before the dotcom bust, Boomers were criticizing us for being cynical and apparently aimless, just like they're constantly accusing Millenials of being coddled and self-absorbed now.
But for a lot of us, I feel like this is a result of us sensing early on that our collective ship was never going to come in the way it had for the Boomers, but we were still all kind of trying to occupy time until whatever eventually ended up happening for us would happen for us.
This song has been running through my head the past few days. I feel like it exemplifies this perfectly.
I woke up from a nap today to a text that I received, informing me that an old friend of mine had passed away. On LJ she was tenar10r, and I am not sure she ever made the jump to DW. She was getting over a bad divorce, and it seemed like she was starting to bounce back. I still don't know the details. Her funeral is next week.
So many of us didn't make it out of the 90s, thanks to depression, heroin, and sundry other reasons. Those of us who did make it are now getting to that age where we're starting to shuffle off, while it feels like the Boomers spin ever on and on, aged but ageless.
Those of us who are immunocompromized, those of us predisposed to diabetes or heart disease or cancer, those of us with depression who choose to find their own way out, are leaving already; our lights are starting to go out, one by one. So many of us have never had the resources to lift us back out, to get us over.
I can feel mortality creeping up, just as I feel like I am finally starting to figure things out and get my shit together, and it terrifies me.
That said...if you ever need to, please, please reach out to someone, for any reason or no reason at all.
