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Here it is.

That was what the Epstein files were really all about. But since Their Guy is Suspect #1, they've pivoted to throwing everything behind the ICEstapo. The fact that ICE has not been sent to occupy any border states with higher immigration statistics proves that was never about immigration, any more than it was about "saving children from trafficking" because their guy is trafficker and rapist #1. And now the proof is right there in their faces, and now they can't just rationalize it away.

But it's always been about them just wanting to be able to execute us at will just for disagreeing with them about the economy, disagreeing with them about civil rights (i.e. that everyone should have them), for rejecting their cruelty and hypocrisy, for rejecting their warped misappropriation of a 3000-year-old Levantine storm god, and for gently asking them to put on masks during a global pandemic. That's all it has ever been about. That's what all of their bullshit rationalizations about immigration or "saving the children" are about. Always has been.

Rest in power Renee Good and Alex Peretti, and everyone else victimized by these thugs whose names haven't been revealed or aren't being mentioned right now. You never should have been martyrs. We can't let their murderers get away with this.

Current mood.


[A tweet by c a i t l i n, with the text "Roving banks of masked federal agents with total immunity executing gun owners is the kind of sweaty conservative fantasy we've heard over the last 20 years on cable news and now that it's here, they love it."]

On youtube, here.

I like how he goes straight into the way that Tron was an expression of 60s Left Wing idealism, and the idea of taking on a corrupt corporate entity: and even going into the spirituality and consciousness-expanding aspects of it.

( Spoilers for the Tron franchise. )

The 5 Calls campaign to stop the military escalation in Venezuela.

I'm pulling my head out of fandomspace and freaking out about my real life!space to address this absolutely unnecessary clusterfuck that absolutely no one asked for except Donald Trump and his pet Ghoulstapo assholes.

I wasn't able to make any of the protests today because of family issues, but I'm sure there will continue to be protests as the fuckery continues, so I'll make it to one eventually.

Cue "I can't believe I still have to protest this shit" shit.

Current Mood.

[A Tweet from David Malki which reads, "If a croque madame speaks to another croque madame about something other than a croque monsieur, that's called passing the béchamel test."]

It's December 2025, Thanksgiving has happened, and I don't know where my brain is right now. I keep trying to post, and just drawing a blank. This isn't a bad thing necessarily, because as of this moment I have written more fanfic in the past two weeks (for Tron, of course) than I have over the past twelve years.

I might need a Beta.

Tron being a thing again has hard-reset my brain. I literally can't remember what I was doing or thinking before the new movie dropped, aside from being depressed.

I have had to prevent myself from brainrotting on Tumblr and Reddit so I can get the fic written. Before it was like "oh, I'll write these ideas down at some point but I'm having fun just imagining all this stuff and maladaptice daydreaming. And now it's like, I HAVE to get this out of my head and onto a page and or I'll LOSE IT, this is not just "tee hee what if Tron and Blade Runner happened in the same universe" crackfic which seems on the surface like it should have worked in theory, but I could never actually get to work in practice. This is a real Cyberpunk Gothic Kitchen Sink Drama But With Rich People happening in my head in real time, which must be extracted and given the Permanence Code before it starts to disintegrate. It draws inspiration from Michael Moorcock's The Final Programme, (which I didn't consciously intend, but I realized was obvious once I started plotting it out. Grandpa Mike is hella mad that everyone keeps riffing on his work, but yeah.) And it works so well and I have such a good feel for the characters that it doesn't feel stupid and cringe like my attempts at Blade Runner crossover fic was. Another big influence is the AMC animated series Pantheon, which I've had to be careful not to accidentally rip off in several places.

And like...it's already been 2019. It's almost 2026. The cyberpunk future from Blade Runner obviously hasn't happened. Instead, we're getting the Current Cyberpunk Dystopia we have now, with Billionaire Techbros and AI: which seems to have been partial inspiration for Tron: Ares. But the basic themes are still the same: wouldn't an entity with real self-awareness and real emotions essentially be human in a sense, even if they started their life inside a computer? And what happens when the line between human and program starts to blur?

And it's weird. It was in 2019 when I decided to file the Blade Runner Serial Numbers off my OCs from the earlier attempted Blade Runner crossover fanfic, and totally abandoned the idea of it being a Blade Runner crossover at all. And that was when it hit me - those OCs were never Tyrells. They were Dillingers. They were not just Dillingers *now*, they had always been Dillingers, and I was just figuring it out right then, in 2019. But even after I figured that out, the fic I had been trying to write since 2013 didn't work because there was no reason for a Dillinger, any Dillinger, to be on any of Flynn's Grids post-Legacy. But I couldn't figure out what to do with them from there.

Well, I know what to do with them now. And it's happening.

And as I said in a previous post: one of my concerns is that this story may go places that some readers will not be comfortable with. This is ostensibly based on a Disney franchise, after all. And I just have to figure out how far I can push the envelope without going overboard with it. But hell, if Steven Lisberger was able to get a whole polycule past the radar in 1982, I should be able to pull this off via subtext.

Yes, I've probably gone batshit insane. But as The Kids say, "Fuck it, we ball."

Current Mood.

[A panel from Alan Moore's Watchmen, with the caption "It's November 10th now. There is a circulatory system walking through the kitchen..."]

[Tumblr post from doctor-doodleman which reads, "I should lock the fuck in *half an hour passes* I should lock the fuck in *half an hour passes* I should-"]

The thing I want to get across to MAGA right now, more than anything else, is that they are creating a future that they themselves will not want to live in once it gets here. They think it will be wonderful, they think it will be everything they wanted, they think they will be in blissful ecstacy once they have made us shut up and disappear...but once we are gone, once their outrage addiction finally starts to fizzle out and and all they have left is burnout, the only ones who will be left to tear apart will be each other. And they're already doing it. The September 10th shooter is a Groyper, after all. It's already started.

MAGA acted like being politely asked to refer to people by their preferred pronouns, or to please wear a mask in the grocery store, or people suggesting they get a vaccine during the pandemic was tyranny - because they've never actually lived in tyranny. They've never actually lived under a regime that actively represses free speech and personal freedoms. They want to claim that "cancel culture" is no different. But at this rate, they're about to find out just how bad government restriction of free speech is by comparison.

They wanted to compare the threat of "being cancelled" to persecution for "thought crimes" ala the novel 1984, but they're about to find out how much worse actual government persecution for "thought crimes" is about to get under Trump. They're going to find out how much worse it will be than the censure or personal judgement from their liberal acquaintances or family members, or random strangers on the internet.

They think "the libs" will be the only people affected, and they're about to find out how wrong they are about that.

It's like the MAGAs who go to Russia, thinking it's right wing paradise - only to find that all of their speech and activities are monitored 24/7, and oops, Dad just got conscripted! That's the reality that they're creating for themselves over here. They think living under authoritarianism will be awesome, until they're down in it and realizing that it sucks, and they're begging for someone from the civilized world to please come extract them.

It's being sold to them by the same pack of grifters who learned in the aftermath of 9/11/2001 that if they kept the outrage burning, and kept the fear of the Other stoked to appropriate levels, these folks will gladly turn their brains off and give up their Constitutionally-granted freedoms, and buy anything the grifters want to sell them. But there will come a point that the outrage stops doing it for them, and then all that will be left will be misery. And by then they will have willingly ceded away any power that the Constitution granted them to do anything to save themselves. Yes, even their precious Second Amendment. (What, you think they won't willingly hand their guns over to "Daddy Trump," when we already watched them willingly bend over for "Daddy Bush" and the Patriot Act?)

People who have studied the authoritarian playbook can see this coming a mile away.

And there will be no one to "come extract them" by that point. They'll just be stuck in the Authoritarian Hell they created for themselves.

- I attended a showing of The Matrix Experience In Shared Reality at Cosm Theater, aka The Fancy Planetarium. This was an amazing idea by the way, I'm not knocking it. I feel like someone said "hey, let's show movies in a Planetarium, but it's like a fancy Alamo Draft House, and you can order food and alcoholic beverages," and trust me it's awesome. And The Matrix Experience was amazing and if you have access and the funds, you should totally go. I drank the Red Pill!


[A picture of a red-colored beverage in a tumbler, with the caption "Bourbon, Campari, Sweet Vermouth, Orange Juice, Lemon Juice, And Simple Syrup."]

- I'm going to California in a week to visit my sister! Yay! And so I have justification to beg our parents to maybe move there from the Hate State we are currently living in. "It's totally awesome, you should move there! I should move there!"

- Andre and Lazlo are back! And they moved into a mansion! My favorite Youtube Home Improvement show is back, hooray!

- I've spent entirely too long writing and revising articles about 20-year-old witch drama on my website, and now it's time for Skyrim!

Current Mood.

Back at the beginning of 2017 when Trump was just sworn in, Elliott Lusztig tweeted a quote from Hannah Arendt about the true purpose of Fascist conspiracy theories and accusations made against people they are targeting.

More recently, someone (I think Mike Rothschild on Bluesky) posted a reminder of the role Qanon filled during Trump's first administration: that it was providing rationalizations why "The Storm," i.e. a mass execution of elected Democrats and Liberals, wasn't happening as quickly as they were expecting.

The Storm was coming, they promised: but Trump was getting all of the evidence together so it would be foolproof. The Storm was coming, but he wanted to tighten the noose so that none of the "Satanic Pedophile Elite" could escape. The Storm was coming, but Trump was busy personally storming the tunnels where the captive Mole Children were being kept, etc. etc. etc. Trump was totally going to do The Storm Bro, I promise: but he couldn't just do it right away.

MAGA was expecting "The Storm" to happen 6:00am, day 1 of the Trump administration, 1/20/2017. Instead they got a shitty Muslim Ban that was quickly shot down by the courts, before their God Emperor took several months off to play golf.

Then, of course, Americans suffered a brief outbreak of sanity in November 2020 and elected Joe Biden instead. MAGA erupted in the Stupid Coup that was Jan 6, 2021. And one of the reasons for their outrage was the narrative that The Deep State had cheated them of The Storm.

"The Storm" hinged on the Epstein List. Once "The Black Book" was leaked, once the client list was exposed, it would be all over for Democrats, and MAGA Hateriots would be allowed to hunt "The Libs" in the street for sport.

Epstein himself shuffling off the mortal coil in such a quick and suspicious manner was just more grist for the conspiracy theory mill. And according to personal accounts I have seen, many of them have rewritten history in their minds so that it happened on Biden's watch, under his orders, instead of in 2019 when Trump was still President.

One 2024 election later, they thought Trump might actually deliver. The files were right there on Pam Bondi's desk! She was right there in front of the camera holding the binder! We all saw it! Except no. LMAO are they stupid?

The Epstein List was useful to Donald Trump because it energized his base, and it would continue to be useful as long as it was never, ever, ever made public. Because as it turns out, he's Elite Pedophile #1.

Even MAGAs too dumb or in denial to understand that Donald Trump is on that list are foaming at the mouth, because now it looks like he is protecting the people who are on it. Those whispered conspiracy theories that he perhaps maybe never stopped being good friends with the Clintons, and his "lock her up!" ranting was maybe all just for show? MAGA might be cranking the volume up a bit on that.

But the main point here is that MAGA wanted permission to mass murder "The Libs." As you hear MAGAs screaming and seething with frustration about this issue, please understand that this is what this it's really all about. They don't care that Trump is on the list. They don't want justice for the victims. They're angry because their justification for wanting to murder everyone they hate, their rationalization for the theoretical eventuality in which they will freely be allowed kill us for pleasure with no repercussions, is being denied them.

They've been obsessed with the practice of cuckoldry for a decade now, but it looks like their guy is cockblocking them. They've wanted this for years, and he won't just let them have it. And if they do finally abandon him, it won't be because he's on the list, it will be because of that.