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numb3r_5ev3n) wrote2025-01-25 08:02 pm
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Update Jan 25th 2025
Everything sucks, so I'm rewatching Twin Peaks.
I feel obligated to report whenever I have a dream about The Matrix. Well, I had a dream last night. After getting impaled in Matrix Revolutions (lol spoilers) Trinity is in Juno's office from Beetlejuice and asks her "what happens next?"
I think Juno's response was "well that depends."
I don't remember what happened after that, except that obviously (also spoilers) Trinity went back. So anyway.
I think my favorite Matrix dream is still the one where Trinity goes to rescue Neo after he gets grabbed the first time. She goes in expecting to fight an Agent, expecting to be killed, and Smith is like "thank god, take me with you."
This got me thinking about the overall plot of the sequels in relation to the first film, and got me wondering if, in the timeline of the five previous iterations, getting the Zion mainframe access codes was important in the run-up to attacking Zion and perpetuating the cycle, or if Cypher (or his equivalent) being thwarted always happens.
LOL I am probably overthinking this a lot.
Switching gears, I feel like an unintended consequence of my posting falling off over the last ten years is that I haven't addressed a lot of the activism-related stuff I should have kept more towards the forefront. I have mentioned the ongoing genocide in Gaza a few times and my opinions on it, but not networking about what the average person can do to actually, you know, do anything to help. Mostly I've donated to Doctors Without Borders and World Central Kitchen. I signal boost mutual aid requests whenever they come across my feed over on bluesky, but that doesn't translate to stuff that ends up over here.
Meanwhile, Teen Vogue posted this list of resources for Trans teens.
Back during the early 2000s, I was able to keep up with the news pretty well and update my website and blog on my Livejournal pretty much every time there was a development. But things move so quickly now that things frequently feel overwhelming. It's easy to lose sight of what should take priority. Individual sounds can get lost in the din. And I think maybe that for a lot of the bad actors on the world's stage right now, this is the plan.
All of the anti-fash fiction I grew up on, like Elric and Marshall Law, etc, talked about the "obsessive order" of fascism. And I'm like, have you seen fascism? It's chaotic as fuck. It can't even decide what it believes from one moment to the next, because it really has no fixed ideology outside of grabbing and maintaining power. It's not really about order at all.
Walter Sobchak was wrong: National Socialism is not, in fact an Ethos. It's just about power. Other than that, it is actually just nihilism.
The displacement and/or murder of innocent people, whether it's by the dozens, the hundreds, the thousands, or the millions, is really just a flex - a salve for people with weak, wounded, empty egos. And fanning the fires of hatred is just a means to an end; a way to get other weak people to go along with it. An illusion of strength, that an actually strong-minded person will see right through in an instant.
When I was 21, I had this epiphany one night that only inherently weak people seek power, because truly strong, secure, confident people don't see the need. Power is something a person seeks when they are spiritually, intellectually, personally weak; to make up for a perceived deficit that they feel inside.
But power is something that you have. Meaning that, like the man said in Andor, it has to be maintained, constantly. It can be bungled, or lost, or taken away. Being strong is what you are, and no one else can really take it away from you.
And the authoritarians and fascists - the weak people - will never really have that. They could be, say, the richest, most powerful man in the world, and still be a weakling inside. And only weak people seek power, rather than developing strength: because they can't tell the difference. They've never known or experienced it themselves.
Power is what a weak person thinks strength is.
Who goes Nazi? Harper Magazine asked, and answered that question back in 1941. "Kind, good, happy, gentlemanly, secure people never go Nazi. They may be the gentle philosopher whose name is in the Blue Book, or Bill from City College to whom democracy gave a chance to design airplanes—you’ll never make Nazis out of them. But the frustrated and humiliated intellectual, the rich and scared speculator, the spoiled son, the labor tyrant, the fellow who has achieved success by smelling out the wind of success—they would all go Nazi in a crisis."
Current Mood.
I feel obligated to report whenever I have a dream about The Matrix. Well, I had a dream last night. After getting impaled in Matrix Revolutions (lol spoilers) Trinity is in Juno's office from Beetlejuice and asks her "what happens next?"
I think Juno's response was "well that depends."
I don't remember what happened after that, except that obviously (also spoilers) Trinity went back. So anyway.
I think my favorite Matrix dream is still the one where Trinity goes to rescue Neo after he gets grabbed the first time. She goes in expecting to fight an Agent, expecting to be killed, and Smith is like "thank god, take me with you."
This got me thinking about the overall plot of the sequels in relation to the first film, and got me wondering if, in the timeline of the five previous iterations, getting the Zion mainframe access codes was important in the run-up to attacking Zion and perpetuating the cycle, or if Cypher (or his equivalent) being thwarted always happens.
LOL I am probably overthinking this a lot.
Switching gears, I feel like an unintended consequence of my posting falling off over the last ten years is that I haven't addressed a lot of the activism-related stuff I should have kept more towards the forefront. I have mentioned the ongoing genocide in Gaza a few times and my opinions on it, but not networking about what the average person can do to actually, you know, do anything to help. Mostly I've donated to Doctors Without Borders and World Central Kitchen. I signal boost mutual aid requests whenever they come across my feed over on bluesky, but that doesn't translate to stuff that ends up over here.
Meanwhile, Teen Vogue posted this list of resources for Trans teens.
Back during the early 2000s, I was able to keep up with the news pretty well and update my website and blog on my Livejournal pretty much every time there was a development. But things move so quickly now that things frequently feel overwhelming. It's easy to lose sight of what should take priority. Individual sounds can get lost in the din. And I think maybe that for a lot of the bad actors on the world's stage right now, this is the plan.
All of the anti-fash fiction I grew up on, like Elric and Marshall Law, etc, talked about the "obsessive order" of fascism. And I'm like, have you seen fascism? It's chaotic as fuck. It can't even decide what it believes from one moment to the next, because it really has no fixed ideology outside of grabbing and maintaining power. It's not really about order at all.
Walter Sobchak was wrong: National Socialism is not, in fact an Ethos. It's just about power. Other than that, it is actually just nihilism.
The displacement and/or murder of innocent people, whether it's by the dozens, the hundreds, the thousands, or the millions, is really just a flex - a salve for people with weak, wounded, empty egos. And fanning the fires of hatred is just a means to an end; a way to get other weak people to go along with it. An illusion of strength, that an actually strong-minded person will see right through in an instant.
When I was 21, I had this epiphany one night that only inherently weak people seek power, because truly strong, secure, confident people don't see the need. Power is something a person seeks when they are spiritually, intellectually, personally weak; to make up for a perceived deficit that they feel inside.
But power is something that you have. Meaning that, like the man said in Andor, it has to be maintained, constantly. It can be bungled, or lost, or taken away. Being strong is what you are, and no one else can really take it away from you.
And the authoritarians and fascists - the weak people - will never really have that. They could be, say, the richest, most powerful man in the world, and still be a weakling inside. And only weak people seek power, rather than developing strength: because they can't tell the difference. They've never known or experienced it themselves.
Power is what a weak person thinks strength is.
Who goes Nazi? Harper Magazine asked, and answered that question back in 1941. "Kind, good, happy, gentlemanly, secure people never go Nazi. They may be the gentle philosopher whose name is in the Blue Book, or Bill from City College to whom democracy gave a chance to design airplanes—you’ll never make Nazis out of them. But the frustrated and humiliated intellectual, the rich and scared speculator, the spoiled son, the labor tyrant, the fellow who has achieved success by smelling out the wind of success—they would all go Nazi in a crisis."
Current Mood.
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I used to argue with an ex about fascism being more of an aesthetic than an ideology and I still think I'm right about this. Its incoherence and chaos have led to its ruin historically, over and over again. It's the one thing that gives me hope.
I used to post about politics here a lot more; now I just assume that everyone is getting their news from elsewhere, but given the unreliability of elsewhere, maybe I should start doing that more.
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There are people who seek out elected offices like that, who wind up with power without thinking that that’s the point of existence. The Bernie Sanderses and AOCs of the world still exist. I don’t know that it’s fair to them to be tarred with the same brush as the Orange in Chief or the old guy with no chin, tho.
That Who Goes Nazi quote is hella on the money, tho.
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