I feel like I dodged a bullet, because the idea of having three other friends to do magick with would have been catnip to my teenage self, and I was on the periphery of a lot of chaos magick stuff but not actually practicing it. And I think I had the kind of vulnerabilities that would have left me prey to unscrupulous people or culty dynamics.

(Though probably Moonblood would have dissuaded me from getting too heavily involved, since it would trigger one of my squicks.)