See, for me the issue was "why did people gaslight me about my mental illness being a moral failing" but there was encouragement to get treatment, and there were attempts to get treatment - that ended in failure, because it was assumed that the OCD was my most urgent issue, when the ADHD and disassociation was really what was fucking everything up for me.

And to this day, it's really, really hard for me to look back and not judge myself. Because from a distance, so much of what I did or did not do does look like it was due to awful moral failings. And that's hard for me to live with now.